I have always wanted a second child, but my immediate postpartum period with my daughter was traumatic. How do you decide to have another baby after having postpartum depression?

Breastmilk is often called “liquid gold.” And I wanted to provide that liquid gold to my baby, to give her the best start possible in life. But I learned that when breastfeeding starts affecting your mental health, it’s no longer liquid gold.

When my daughter was a newborn and COVID was brand new, my worst fear was her catching it and ending up in the hospital. I had to face that fear recently, but it wasn’t COVID that put us there.

All babies are hard, there’s no denying that. They are entirely dependent on their parents for everything and all of their basic needs, and they don’t sleep through the night for a while. But what’s it like to parent a baby who just seems like so much MORE than everyone else?

I didn’t think that I could have PPD, because I thought that I had prepared and done everything I could to be ready for the arrival of my daughter. PPD doesn’t discriminate, and I am part of the 1 in 7 moms that experience a perinatal mood and anxiety disorder.

My entire parenthood journey has taken place during a global pandemic. My daughter has never been in a store or a restaurant, and at times it feels like the rest of the world has moved on while leaving behind parents of children too young to be vaccinated. I’m a mom to a toddler during a global pandemic, and I am not okay.